“Then all this assembly shall know that the Lord does not save with sword and spear; for the battle is the Lord’s, and He will give you into our hands.”
1 Samuel 17:47
© Karen L. Murphy Photography, 2013
GOLIATH VS. ME…ME VS. GOLIATH
Sometimes in life we go through a time when the whole world seems to have crashed around us and no one understands the deep anguish and pain that accompany this. They think we have completely lost all sense of self and some of them don’t want to have anything to do with you while you work through it all. While others are so kind to be there to hold you, cry with you, listen to you (even when you’ve talked about it every single time you have opened your mouth around them).
It takes a special kind of fortitude to go through these times because that is when all you have is yourself and God to handle it. Sure, your friends and family can give advice and listen, but ultimately, you realize you have to find the answers yourself.
This Goliath comes to you every day. He demands your attention and your time. He demands you deal with him each and every hour until you can no more get up and do what is required of you than you can take your next breath. The beating of your heart feels ten times heavier from the way it did a minute ago because with each passing moment, each passing thought, each passing tear, your heart burns like a paper cut just a little more and a little more, until one day it is underneath Goliath’s feet and he is laughing and stomping on it and mocking you. Your soul becomes bare and numb and you can’t even form a single thought. Every prayer you pray feels empty as if it has just hit the ceiling and bounced back down shattering at your feet. You stare at it not knowing whether to sweep it up and try to put it back together or to let it lay there in a puddle. After awhile, you get tired of listening to Goliath taunt you with his fangs baring, dripping words of self loathing and incrimination so you go and find some armor to shield yourself from every evil vowel that is spilled out. The armor works for a while and even though it is so heavy and cumbersome, you wear it anyway, thinking that if you wear it long enough it will get easier and lighter. But one day you look around, you look down, you realize . . . no, this is not working. This is too much and you cannot take another single minute of feeling all of this disgusting, rotten circumstance. Getting up, you take off the armor feeling quite naked in its absence and you begin to put one foot in front of the other. Left . . . right. Left . . . right. And then you see it. Sitting there. Shiny and new. Just for you. A rock. No, not a rock. A stone. Smooth, flat. Perfect. You fashion a sling and instead of walking you run . . . as fast as you can and with the biggest steps your body will allow. To the point of gasping for the last breath you can muster and there you are, standing just feet from Goliath. He bares his evil grin and looks at you with delight as he smacks his lips for the meal he’s about to devour. He thinks he’s won. That he has absolutely beaten you down to nothingness and you will not fight anymore. But little does he understand, you have new strength. You have found the One that will bring you out of this horrible, stinking, dark abyss. Slowly you put the stone in the sling, raise it above your head and begin to wind it up. Faster, faster and then that stone flies through the air, it arches and the next thing you know, it has hit that Goliath right in the forehead and you watch with tear-soaked cheeks as he hits the ground with such force the earth quakes all around you. You look up and see Him in the most transparent blue sky you have ever set eyes on smiling and letting you know He’s been with you the whole time. Bravely, boldly you march up to that Goliath, you chop off his head and you toss it as far as you can because you know. You KNOW! This is it. You are ready to move on and make peace with yourself. To dream anew. To take new baby steps toward a future you may still be so unsure about but you know that you are not alone in going into the unknown. This wasn’t a death sentence. This wasn’t the end of being. This, THIS was a time to grow and find who you really are and who you want to be and what you want to be. Never mind that they didn’t understand. It wasn’t for them to understand. It was for you and you alone with God to go and face the giant in your life and win the battle . . . ONCE AND FOR ALL!
Be who God has asked you to be
Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise
It isn’t up to them . . . It is up to you
Don’t just dream . . .
Dream big and succeed!
As a devotional to this why not go and read about David’s battle with Goliath in 1 Samuel 17. It’s one fantastic story! No matter how big or small your circumstance, how insignificant you may feel, no matter if you feel like you are big enough or not to defeat Goliath, look to God to fight the battle for you. He will give you the tools you need to go against your Goliath and with the faith of even a mustard seed, you will win with God on your side. God loves you and He is longing to help you through whatever trial you are facing today.
© Marcie Bridges, Heart Thoughts, 2013