Sudden and without provocation
grips you with its talons deep and strong.
There doesn’t even have to be a reason.
It’s just there.
The moment will come and when it does
it will make you stop dead in your tracks.
No going back.
Whispering into your ear.
Heart beats in an unnatural rhythm
and hands begin to shake.
it snatches you up.
Eats into your mind.
Claws into your gut.
The world spins out of control
going faster and faster
stomach gets queasy
head begins to pound.
And just when you think
you can’t take it anymore
You get off. Stagger a bit.
Confused for a moment.
Then walk away.
Everything is normal.
©Marcell Warner Bridges
29, March 2010
And I’m NOT going to tell you about it! (I’ve told enough people and I don’t care to relive the memories right before bed time.)
But sometimes life can get pretty scary. Sometimes it scares us so much we can’t put one foot in front of the other. Or maybe we can’t even get out of bed. But I’ve learned something really important this week.
So when we feel like we can’t handle it, this is the time to give it to God and when we trust Him with it, we are strengthened and we are able to move forward. We are able to calm down and to rest in Him.
This last week was hard when it came to sleeping. I feared closing my eyes so I wouldn’t encounter the memories that come with nothing else to think about. But last week my friend **Nan just happened to do a blog post entitled Be Still and with it she posted a video of Alan Jackson singing the old hymn, “In the Garden”. Every time I tried to close my eyes to sleep I found myself singing that hymn and many others. I found singing hymns specifically with the name of Jesus so soothing that I eventually drifted off to sleep and each morning waking up thanking Jesus that I did not have any nightmares.
LIVING IN FEAR IS NOT LIVING AT ALL. Give your fears to Jesus and see what He will rescue you from.