The Lord is righteous in all His ways, Gracious in all His works.
The Lord isnear to all who call upon Him, To all who call upon Him in truth.
He will fulfill the desire of those who fear Him;He also will hear their cry and save them.
The Lord preserves all who love Him, But all the wicked He will destroy.
My mouth shall speak the praise of the Lord,
And all flesh shall bless His holy name Forever and ever.
Have you ever had something in your life that you didn’t understand why God put it there? Maybe you struggle with a relationship, maybe finances, maybe an addiction or perhaps like me, you struggle with physical problems. And perhaps you have asked God a hundred times to take it away from you or to help you with it. Yet it seems He doesn’t hear and doesn’t answer. Has it ever become so overwhelming for you that you finally cried out to Him over it? I mean literally! Screaming, crying, flinging yourself on the floor wailing asking Him over and over for an answer???? Recently I went through one of those times and it took me 2 months to get through it and to really listen and find out what God’s answer would be. I spent that time just writing down my thoughts as they came. I hope it helps someone in some small way.
Sometimes in our desire to find answers from God we are lead into a deeper relationship with Him and we find we want to know God even more. I found that desire through this struggle with God (with my disability).
The question burns inside of me I’ve dared not ever ask
So personal so hard to think about it grieves me in my chest
I cannot think about it without feeling deep selfishness
Lord, I know You have an answer
But do I have the right to the request?
With many more on this planet who are worse off than I am
Do I have the right to make it heard?
It has only taken root inside my very core
Just recently I’ve discovered I even had the need.
Now I ask You humbly, this question upon my soul,
I wonder Lord, will You answer now
Or must I wait until I’m home
Lord, why is this bothering me so
Why am I suddenly so fearful
I thought I had accepted what You’ve given to me
Now it seems it has gotten too big
too heavy, too much
and I long for an answer to my questions
what must I do to hear them?
If I asked Lord, would you heal me?
If I want You to restore me, would You?
Such uncertainty, such regret,
That I never took the time to think any of this
Until now that I’m older, wiser I hope,
Have I waited too long to ask this of You?
Perhaps You’ve already answered and I haven’t heard
Maybe I’ve talked too much and not listened to a word
Yet now is the time… I feel pretty assured
You can handle these questions
You can take all the pressure
You can take all the anger
You have an answer.
(~Marcell Warner Bridges, © November 2012)
So Lord I asked You several times
cannot say I feel any better;
You say in Your Word to not worry
Not about what to wear
What we eat
Or the roof above our heads.
You even tell us not to worry about
Oh how I’ve worried lately Lord.
I’ve made everything about me.
Me, me, me, me.
Seems like lately my world has come
Crashing down around my head
And it has flowed all the way down
down, down, down
to the tips of my toes.
I don’t know where to turn
I don’t know what You want
I have listened to everyone’s counsel
I have listened to my own.
But I can’t seem to let it go
Let it sit at Your feet
I asked You to let me forget about it
even for a day…yet it stays…
All I want right now dear Lord,
is to rest in utter sweet peace.
(22 November 2012)
Today Lord, I was talking to you
And a thought occurred
It was very new
Perhaps I’ve heard Your answer
Perhaps I should listen to this
It felt so right and so real
I’m sure, I know it came from You.
It was just a whisper
Your still, small, voice
I heard it clear and I heard it in my heart
And there it was …
Be thankful dear child for what I’ve given you
Be thankful for what you have.
Don’t worry about what might be in the future
Just trust Me
Everything will be okay.
Whatever I give you to go through
Even if it is what you fear the most
Just rely on Me in all things
That is where lies your hope.
Go on dear child, listen to Me,
I know you are scared through and through
But trust in what you know
Believe in your heart
Have faith like a child
And I’ll lead you through every valley
Over every mountain
Through every dark shadow
Every fear that you feel
Every time you need help
I’ll be here.
~Marcell Warner Bridges
© Marcie Bridges, Heart Thoughts, 2013